myboringlife

Tuesday 25 October 2016 @ 00:55 0 stares

we made a promise today. well i think its a promise. since he said 'lets go there when we grow up' geez. you should not have said that when your heart is taken. Its making me really really fucking confused. you are messing with my feelings. he probably said that out of friendship. {friendzoned} haha. k thats all bye.

p.s ; it made me happy either way. i hope he remembers about it when we grow up. though the place he said about is literally already in pieces. eh. ill go there anyways. hoping that he would remember. btw its a haunted place. a prison. he said he has interests in that sort of stuff. so do i actually. fate? nah. far than fate. coincidence.

25/10/16

confused;

Monday 24 October 2016 @ 00:25 0 stares

do you know that feeling when you think you're special? but you're actually not? he's the first thats actually really fucking nice to me that its making me have mixed feelings. i thought i was special. it made me feel happy. but then i realize. he's nice to everyone. haha. when he asked to take pictures with me, i was surprised. but he does it to everyone. im no exception. :]

21/10/16 - we played indoor games together. our fingers touched. strange. it made me feel happy. but my heart doesn't react at all. numb. its not beating hard as if im in love. i guess it was just an admiration? hurm.

23/10/16 - i realized his heart is taken. i knew. but that day confirmed it. although his love was unrequited. i am still not having any response from my heart. i also do not feel jealousy. indeed. it was not love. probably longing? longing for his attention? i dont know. im confused.

woopsie

@ 00:09 0 stares

i accidently deleted all my posts. (the stories i made) oh welp. guess im gonna be re-constructing the blog lol. that was a really unintentional mistake. sighh. i dont even remember the stories i made :'( well thats it lol. bye.